The good news and the bad news-
You know that saying “everything happens for a reason?” Sometimes I don’t understand it, and other times I do, I guess. Anyways, as I lay in my bed now, I am pissed. I was supposed to work out today, clean the house, get things done. But a few weeks ago something weird started happening with my body, and although I do not have health insurance, something inside me was bugging me to go to the doctor.
And, well, if I hadn’t, we’d be down an Emily in about a year or so.
I am in pain. And the procedure I just had done to me was both very unflattering as well as pretty yucky. So the bad news- there are these little asshole cells that decide they want to turn into cancer trying to suffocate my insides. Also, I won’t have health insurance for at least another two months so that is going to screw with my family’s wallets for now because I don’t have the funds to keep doing these “procedures.” I am thankful that I have them to help, financially and emotionally, because at this point, sometimes I feel like what’s the point let’s just leave it, kickin’ the bucket from cervical cancer will at least get me a trip around the world or something, right? (Totally kidding)
The good news is they caught it early enough to where all I will have to do is have a few more embarrassing and yes, super uncomfortable procedures done, and I should be as fit as a fiddle. One of these said procedures involves freezing part of my insides and that’s kinda terrifying but hey if it works it works, right?
It’s strange, I mean I miss my friends and I totally broke down and lost my noodles as well as almost losing my lunch while in the doctor’s office, and I wanted to call her up and cry and tell her what’s wrong with me. But then I realize that I cannot do that. But hey, I guess it would really only matter if I actually did bite it from this sickness, and then at least my funeral would be colorful. (Again, totally kidding, I don’t intend on biting it from this.) I have to go out a better, and MUCH cooler way. I’ll try to stick around for longer to bug the shit out of my loved ones.
I am so thankful for the ones I have to help me through this. This sucks some big eggs, but at least we caught it early. I’m not sure if the universe is trying to kill me or if it’s trying to save me. Who freaking knows. Anyway, I’m in so much pain right now I think I need to try and sleep.
My point- life is definitely not a bowl of cherries sometimes, but you have to keep the ones you love close, no matter what. You never know what will happen.